New Year's Resolutions:
1 - I am going to both brush my teeth and go to the gym EVERY DAY until I move

2 - I am going to STOP being quiet about things that piss me off and confront people like I used to.

3 - I am going to get my six-pack back by May

4 - I am SERIOUSLY going to work on drinking less

5 - After Jobe, I am not dating another guy. Fucking, maybe, but time and energy is strictly for the ladies.

6 - I am going to read at least one book a month

7 - I'm going to make more of an effort to not let the little things get to me

8 - I'm going to write everything out, from day-to-day lists to my plans and long term goals

....... I'll think of the other five later.

I really need 2010 to be about bettering me as a person and focusing on my growth. I turn 20, and if I'm not in control when I hit 21 I am so FUCKED. I need better organization, strict routine and to have balls like I used to. But bigger. And a little less angry. Yes, big, billowing nuts of glory will swing from me like destruction balls at a construction site, obliterating everything in their path!! My existence should revolve around my purpose and the well being of my animals, who all need special treatment. Sassy is a little broken and needs a lifetime of rehabilitation and therapy. Attila is crippled and will need surgery in a couple years, but until then needs to be overly loved and attended to. Tyson wants to please me and make me happy, and takes my anger bursts personally. I need to be more tender around him and be appriciative and rewarding so that he stresses less. Also, especially for Tyson, I need to be a stronger owner so that he trusts me to lead him and doesn't feel like he needs to take charge because I'm faulty.

God I've got a lot to work on.